Perhaps it isn't my place to say this, but I felt your pain in every word of this (brilliantly written) article. One thing I do believe: The acknowledgement of pain in your writing - both here and in your fiction (it is inherent there too) - is healthy. I am not going to comment on your personal relationships, or offer sanctimonious platitutes of any kind, as that is none of my business, but I did massively appreciate this insight, not least because of how difficult I expect it would have been to write it and hit publish.